Love is a beautiful thing, so full of every good word in the dictionary. What makes love ugly is when we confuse lust with love and tarnish love’s good name. How about love (or as I said, feelings) for a significant other? Sometimes I worry about my feelings for my significant other. Would it ruin me? Would it lead me to actions I take based on these feelings? I hope not. I can only agree partly when I hear people say that love before marriage is not love at all. I don’t really believe so. I believe that love is love at ANY age. True love, yes, there is only the one and only Allah SWT. The difference is, before marriage, there are many boundaries to watch. And a higher probability of committing sins. I once told this to a friend of mine who advised me not to confess to the person I have feelings for. The advice wasn’t really necessary (but I appreciate the effort anyway) because that was truly out of question. That would be too embarrassing for me. I told my friend that there was nothing to be worried about, that I wasn’t that kind of person. I believe that if I confessed to a guy, it would only be after my marriage so I wouldn’t get involved with any type of zina (what’s zina in English? Adultery?). And I certainly do not want to be involved in THAT. I believe that although I MAY or COULD be married to my boyfriend, or my classmate or a friend from the same school, there is a FAT chance that high school relationships end up that way. So I don’t get too excited, too overwhelmed, and too giddy. Teenage heartbreaks hurt the most. There is a possibility that as important as my significant other may seem to me now, he may not be in the future. Allah knows better. I am not against this act of confessing. Some find it as a step for them to move on. I am not one of these people. I just feel that I am not strong enough. Ya Allah, I am not strong enough. Besides, what is the purpose of confessing anyway? At this age I mean. Confess, then what? I’d rather keep my feelings secret than confess and wait for a response. I don’t say it out loud but I do get the feeling, we ALL do. When we confess, we kind of expect a certain type of reaction, right? So I choose not to. I think we should all think about our studies at the moment. STRAIGHT A+ XDATANG BERGOLEK TAU. Remember that at this age, when you choose not to tell a person about what you feel for him/her, Allah will look at you and love you more (that is, if you don’t have any long-term plans).These feelings I have for this person are just feelings. I don’t plan on doing anything with them. Allah is not punishing me by granting me feelings that could or may cause me to do acts that are sinful. Allah loves me so He is giving me a platform to SHINE, an obstacle He knows I can overcome. InsyaAllah. Allah, I will never love You as much as You love me but I will try to love You all I can. Update: Loving Allah is the greatest feeling you could ever feel. I am certainly glad that I have discovered this feeling when I am still exploring my teenage hood. I’d be more than happy to share with everyone. It has shown me paths that were invisible to me before. We are forgetful and we need to be reminded.
Assalamualaikum.-The Daydreamer-
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